Over a year ago, God led me to do something huge, the biggest I had done had that time and stage of my life, and gave me so much faith for how it will turn out, it was hard for me practicing that level of faith and believing irrespective of the circumstances I had been …
Below is a journal entry of a conversation I had with God, our Father and His Son, Jesus. In my personal space, I call Jesus Ishi, I got the name from Hosea 2 and it’s a Hebrew word that means ‘My Husband.’
“I love you as My child. My Word says you are fearfully & wonderfully made, so when you try to prove a point or act a certain way, you lose this…
He quietly spoke, “As long as you keep using your pain as a weapon against our relationship, instead of a grease, I can’t help you.”
It’s October, breast cancer awareness month and I’m seeing a lump in my breast!
One time, during our restorative process, we were having a conversation when I sensed an emotional withdrawal, I kept budging, yet He wouldn’t talk, it felt like a hurt lover just looking vulnerably at His own and not expressing himself.
Instead, He looked at me with gentle longing and
whispered quietly,
“You have My Heart”
I tuned my ears and He said again,
“Know My Heart. Ask Me what My Heart wants”